Hello again
Cuckoo!
So how is life here now after my dad passed away?
Well, I’m hanging in there.
Waves of sadness are still hitting me but less frequent and kind of softer.
Ironically it’s all the light and good memories that are causing all the pain now...
But, we, me and my sisters, are slowly getting back to normal although my mom is still in her bubble.
I am having the pleasure of having my mom staying with me for a little while and im trying to fill her days with peace, power and love.
Me and my beautiful sisters are also doing small excursions with her without stress and with lots of beauty for the soul to give her mind a rest and a break from her normal schedule.
The weather is still trying to impress and for some reason it manages to sooth our pain and help us to focus on all the beauty instead that surrounds us both naturewise and peoplewise.
Is It wrong to feel lucky in all this?
Im almost feeling guilty but just so grateful for my family, for the sun and for life...
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Quality...
Cuckoo!
An unexpected holiday for my husband turned into a quality day with his wife:)
The weather, the opportunity and the hunger made us take our boat out in the archipelago to enjoy some “me-and-him-time” together.
It is just a great way to get some energy, find some peace and of course admire our beautiful nature from the water.
The only scary part though was this military ship that created waves like mini tsunamis and I immediately felt small and vulnerable again...
My personal capten maneuvered the boat like he had not been doing anything else in his life so he conquered both the mini tsunamis and the wind and safely got us to an island for a lunch and then back again.
Meanwhile I got some sunshine, some togetherness and something else to think about ( funeral coming up on Friday).
Life quality in a nutshell!
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Back in my summerplace
Cuckoo!
I have been down at my summer place again to be with my mom.
It is still very heavy and I can suddenly burst into tears no matter where I am if reminded of something, a place, a habit, food or a sign of what he was doing just before...
My mom still seems to be in shock phase so although I’m not really in the best place to encourage or entertain I can at least be there next to her and share her moments during the day.
Spring is in full bloom trying to make its best to soothe and comfort.
Her little “hut” down at the beach will be out on the market soon so if you already now know of anyone who has a dream of having a traditional “badhytt” let me know!
I’m completely exhausted, listless and have no spirit at all but, even then I get a warm feeling in my heart looking at the white blanket of “stars” covering the ground, my dog and my beautiful family, in this case Bella was the one keeping me company, and I’m so happy for life.
I still think it is amazing how strong joy and laughter are and how those qualities manage to squeeze in to someone’s sadness and grief just to lift the mood for a second and give it a break.
Keep hugging each other and tell important people in your life that you love them!
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